The past year…

Note: This is the first post of many that walks through what I went through in 2019. I’ve been writing as a form of therapy, and it is mentally draining and exhausting to detail every up and down my life has been on. I am hoping that by doing this in multiple parts, it will…

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My Journey to Body Neutrality

I have been attempting to shrink my body for the last 20 years. I tried changing my eating habits. I exercised vigorously. I counted calories. I bought diet pills from the drugstore. When I was at my skinniest, I was acting self-destructive and contemplating suicide every night. I realized I had become a slave to…

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confession: my disorders that I’m most ashamed of.

If you know me, you know I am usually very open with depression and anxiety, but there are a few other disorders I have that have always brought me great shame and embarrassment. I’ve mentioned them a few times here and there, but never really explained it.  It wasn’t until a few months ago that…

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the inconvenience of mental illness

I have a tendency to spiral with my emotions. If I don’t get an invite to a friend’s party, I get upset thinking about what I possibly could have done wrong or done better in our relationship. I go back to the time in third grade when a girl told me, “It’s not our fault…

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